haha haven't been updating this blog for a long time lol been lazy i guess but i have this sudden urge to revive my blog again so i shall TRY to update constantly =)
MYEs are long over and results are out and i failed my 3 h2s. sighs its reallie horrendous, especially physics. i mean, if there's a grade lyk U-, i'll surely get it. i dun even dare face mr ng today during class. damn. i think i got lyk the lowest in class for physics.
though i dont reallie show it. but im actually quite upset about my results. i mean, who likes to fail, seriously, and furthermore, everything. but i feel wad ms teo said today during lecture is very true. we all attend the same lectures and use the same material. so, the effort we decide to put in is the deciding factor of our results. knowing full well that im weaker than others, i should have studied harder and put in more effort as well. i have studied, yes. but definitely not hard enough =/
i think retaining is seriously becoming a reality for me and no longer a joke anymore. i reallie cant imagine how to face my family if i reallie do have to retain, or even worse, get kicked out of college.
argh!
sometimes it reallie is unfair. studying doesnt necessarily get you a pass. its lyk you can study your guts out and you'll still fail. i think i reallie chose the wrong course for me. knowing full well that i suck at sciences and still taking MCP, is seriously a damn dumb choice. sometimes i reallie wonder why im so dumb and stupid, and not as smart as those in my class. i think s20 is a class which is full of reallie smart people. i guess i can only blame my laziness and constantly not paying attention in class.
sighs. why am i a failure? =(
